Retail therapy

After 7 long days of roadshow at Suntec Carrefour, everyday working 10-10 without any day off, setting up which runs 4am into the morning and a midnight sales which I worked fr 10am to 1am at night. Finally its over. Took 2days off, mon and tues, its a long awaited break. With so many things happening this few days, sales is definitely affected. No mood to talk so much cock with customers, talks that lack convincing power and persuasion skill, closing deals are bad.

Have not been sleeping much since thursday. Slept at 6-7am every morning and wake up at 9 and off I go to work. Feeling the strain but i guess insomnia has caught up on me again. Have not been eating much also. 1 meal per day. Its hard not to lose weight. Can't even finish a packet of Chicken Rice, not very much like myself, and I feel satiated the whole day. My efforts for losing weight has paid off. I lost 6kg in 3weeks. Just got back from a run. 2.4km timing is 10.46. 3wks ago, my timing was close to 13min. I shall lose another 3kg and my weight will be just nice.

Went out with Anqi today. Woke up early in the morning too, couldnt sleep much. Supposed to go ECP to rollerblade but her legs injured. So end up in Orchard shopping. She said she will be my "part-time girlfriend" for the day. Lolx. Can't believe I spent 200+bucks in just 30mins. Bought a SWATCH watch which cost $129, the 1st watch that I ever bought for myself. All my other watches were given to me as gifts. Bought a Braun Buffel wallet at 84bucks. Went to watch Slient Hill at Cineleisure after shopping, did not play the game before, so couldnt understand the storyline, Anqi and me were so lost in the show. Ate quite abit of stuff today. I think i spent 250 over bucks today in all. So thats what they call retail therapy. Thank you Anqi, for accompanying me today, if not I would have cooped myself up at home.

Today I returned whatever that was given by her during the past 4yrs back to her. Realised that I had nothing left, thats why I bought wallet and watch. There are more things to buy. Half my wardrobe is gone, shoes, belt, quilt, sweater, even stationaries. All my favourite books are gone. Most of the stuff in my room are bought by her, I seldom buy anything seriously. I shall start shopping next week when I quit my job. This coming Sunday is my last day of work. There is still a month to school reopening, wonder how I should spend my time. Actually intended to quit earlier so that I can spend more time with her, cuz this job might provide a lucrative income but there is really no time for anything else. But now there is no more need for that already. I will still quit nevertheless, I'm tired. Its time to slow down the pace of life and ponder about what had happened and what next.

Some said that what I did was correct, some said that I should be more gentlemanly. I wanted to end it in a gentlemanly fashion but I couldnt come to terms with it. Cognitive Dissonance. The eyes see not what the heart feels and the heart feels not what the eyes see. Even my parents said I was too impulsive, they said I should have listened to her side of explanation. Shawn said that too. Till now, I do not see the need to, so I will not.

I've decided to be a gentlemen, like what chris said, its a test of inner strength. I will remove my previous post titled "Hatred". I will apologise for any damage done thus far. I'm sorry. But I still insist that we will be friends no longer.