Merry Xmas Everyone!!

Merry Xmas to all my dear friends!! Hope everyone will have an enjoyable Christmas.

Yesterday, I went to Shumin's place to have a Christmas dinner. Great food! The few of us almost finish the whole turkey! There is Pasta, Turkey, Cold Tofu, all the great stuff and also Taiwan delicacies cuz Shumin just got back from Taiwan and along with her are loads of food from Taiwan!! Thanks for the Dinner Shumin!!

Watched 2 movies this week with CaiJuan. Curse of the Goldenflower on thursday. There is a student discount at The Cathay, tickets are priced at $6 for shows before 5pm on weekdays. I've been looking forward to this Zhang Yimou production with all the Big shot casts. Well, it wasnt as good as I had expected. The set was spectacular, all the grandeur and stupendousness. Costumes were exaggerated I think, especially the King and Queen's costumes. Other than that, the plot is just mediocre. Some parts were just lame, some I did not really understand, some incestrous relationship going around palace. Gong Li, at age of 40, acted well. Jay Chou was a flop though, comical face trying hard to act sad but failed.

Went to watch Charlotte's Web on Fri with Caijuan again. Thats my literature text during sec sch days. Reading the text or watching it off big screen, the story is just as good. The friendship of a Pig and a spider, a promise made and fulfilled, even if it might caused the death of Charlotte. Somehow proving to all Social Psychologists that Social Equity theory does not exist. Not everything is about maximising rewards and minimising costs. Even animals understand that, shame on us, the most intelligent animals so to speak? Even animals know how to keep their promises when more often than not, we as human beings break ours, maybe its just one of our many flaws as human beings. There is so much to learn from an ficticious animal show, just like how "The Little Prince" had a wake up call on adults. Great show!

Going to watch 2 midnight shows at Cineleisure with Fax and Co later. Confession of the Pain and Flyboy. Hope they will be good.

Till I blog again, Happy festives everyone!

Fun filled day

Today is a all guys outing to Parklane. Billards, KBox, followed by Billards again! Spent a great deal of buckeronies too.. Broke broke broke..

Only Jojo will think that I'm always hanging out with girls, still want to speak the guys somemore. Hey Jojo, wanna know some my of guy friends then tell me directly, I can always introduce them to you. Like my girlfriend doing spot check on me...lolx.. I ask one of them to the line, you also never say anything..lolx..Too shy izzit? Muaaahaaha!

This week is gonna be a busy week.
Thurs going to watch movie with Caijuan, don't know she still on anot.
Sat going to Shumin's place for a Xmas party, but I don't know anyone there except her but never mind, I shall go and socialise, maybe I can get to know more girls, right Jojo?! lolx..
Sun going Ikea with ahlian, she wants to buy some storage boxes, to store all her "auntie style" clothings I think. lolx..

Yesterday after I'm done blogging, I really did went swimming with Fax and Weiyang, because the rain stopped, or it appeared to be. Damn it, We only swam a few laps and the thunder, lightning and rain came back in full force and it had not stopped raining since. It has been raining for more than 24hrs continuously causing me a great deal of inconvenience on the go. As a person who dislike carrying an umbrella, I would rather go into the rain than to carry an umbrella. And I quote Caijuan, "carrying an umbrella is so 'bo seh' (uncouth)". Lolx..

As for tommorow, I shall be a good little boy and stay at home and read my books. It can rain forever for all I care, I just need a cup of nice hot tea and a good book to keep me going.

Good night.

Enjoyment

In pursuits of peace and serenity, the few days following my return from the camp had been rather enjoyable. No clubbing, no loud music, no crowd, nothing at all. I've been at home, sleeping, reading and watching DVDs.

Went to play badminton with Fax and Weiyang last evening at the newly opened Sports Complex behind my neighborhood. We booked the court for an hour but played for a full 3hrs though. Have not tried the new pool and the Gym yet. Shall pay them a visit tommorow. I'm supposed to be swimming in the pool now but all thanks to the nice and dreamy weather leaving me coop up at home once again.

Went HTA to take back my Uniform, send it to the laundry the moment I reached home. The last time I wash them was in June so I guess after wearing it umpteen times for 6months now, it would be a good idea to wash them clean and crisp before the new year.

I went to Jurong Point after returning from HTA to have my lunch and also buy Shawn's Birthday present. Got him a chalkbag which he wanted. It is a very belated present, his birthday falls on 13th Dec, that night we were at O-bar and Double O, reaching home at 3am, waking up at 6am again making my way down to Ubin.

The Library was where I went after getting the present. I have not read a book for the whole semester. Well, no time, too busy is all but excuses. I was just too lazy. This holiday I shall read to my hearts content. I borrowed 5 books, which I hope I can finish in a week. I love to read, few people know that I love reading, little people believe that I am a reader. The image I protray to others is more of a loud mouth, crude and vulglar, hokkien speaking hooligan than an intellectual scholarly academic. But well, who cares.

These are the books I borrowed;
1. The Jury - Steve Martini
2. The Arraignment - Steve Martini
I just got to know about this author, he was a trail lawyer and have published tonnes of books on law thrillers, just like John Grisham, who is my all time favourite author.
3. The Damnation Game - Clive Barker
4. Presumed Innocent - Scott Turow
5. Before I Say Goodbye - Mary Higgins Clark

I've 3 Thrillers, 1 horror and 1 Mystery genre books. I shall thrill myself, uncover the plot, decrypt the suspense...

Not forgetting the bagful of DVDs that WeiYang lend me yesterday. I shall spend my holidays seeking comfort in indulging in these pleasures as a quench for companionship.

Off to read my books. Later.

Cold Blooded, Irresponsible Coward

I was back home since last evening in which I was supposed to be in Ubin for the 30th HOBTC ATC till Sun morning. And what was I supposed to do at the camp? Other than being the Camp's First Aider, I'm supposed to run Area Cleaning on the last day of the camp. Apart from that, I'm at the beck and call of some people, notwithstanding the sacarsm and cynism that comes along the way. It is not just the ATC alone for that matter, it has began since the 1st day of the course, no, wrong, its before the course even.

Why would I even have thought of claiming the pathetic $8/day allowance and get humiliated when I can easily earn up to 10-20bucks/hr amidst this Christmas season. Why did I even bother to drag myself to HTA every morning, the place which I detested most ever since I was a CI, to get myself branded as an EXTRA? Why the fuck did I give a shit to anything like this, when I have well cleared my probation and wouldn't need to give a fuck about HQ and NUS NPCC anymore?

I guess I only have myself to blame. All I could have done is volunteered for positions that would have put me in greater spotlight. All I could have done is put myself in places where could be easily seen by others to be working and not slacking around at the command post behind closed doors. I've put myself in a vulnerable position so to speak and I can blame nobody when I'm put to critics.

I joined the Corp in 1996, when I was in Sec 1, this is 2006, 10yr in the Corp now, 8 to be exact deducting 2 from NS though I was still rather active. What significance does it hold? From a Cadet to a Cadet Insp to an Officer, this Officer rank holds the least significance to me, its worth nothing. Yes, trust me. Right from my CI days, I hated HOs, now that I'm one, I hate myself for being one. The fact that doning on a bush jacket and walking around makes you look good doesnt neutralizes the fact that we are just fools who knows nuts inside. Thats why we have become so vulnerable to attacks from within and without and making ourselves so paranoid over our own turn out and bearing and pre-empting their very next moves. The Utlimate failure of being Officers.

I got sick of all this, and I chose to evade, I forgo my responsibilities, call me irresponsible for leaving some people in the lurch, for others. Call me cold-blooded, for leaving some to suffer alone while I evade to my own happiness. Call me a coward for retreating in face of aversity, maybe thats what I really am, a Cold Blooded, Irresponsible coward. I'm very sorry Lena, for making you upset, I really don't mean to. I'm sorry Sabrina and Winnie, I got to leave you girls there.

I've withdrew myself from the entire course. I'm only going back to take my Uniform next week. This is the last HQ event that I'm involving myself in. No more of HQ events, no more of NUS NPCC events. I will inform Peiyi personally to take me out of the NPCC Night Committee, for im not much of a use in there either.

I strongly believe that to be able keep a CCA for 10years, it really has to ignite from one's strong passion from within him. It is an act that spurs happiness from within me, having seen batches and batches of juniors passed out and now leading a wonderful life, it just warms me just to know that I had once played a part in their lives. I shall persevere in my right direction and hold firm in my beliefs and values.

"develop its cadets into caring and responsible citizens"

Take away my rank and remove my appointment and I wouldnt give two hoots about it. My passion for my unit overights everything else.
With or Without my rank.

10yrs in the Corp and this is my saddest course and ATC ever,
H/INSP CHIN WEI WEN
Honorary Officer
Pioneer NPCC Unit

PS: I will learn to be more responsible.

What is all but Love?

Temperamental yet poised,
Fragile yet unyielding,
Relenting to circumstances, perishes in jeopardy,
Remnants of memories I behold in circumspect,
Muses in retrospect.
What is all but Love, that I once held with regard but had come to regret.
What is all but Love, that I once held in bona fide but is indeed a fradulency.
What is all but Love, for its existence ceased the day you left a crease in me.
There are no reasons for anything, because everything is just Love it is.

Wei Wen
Indulging in reminiscence...

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I've fallen ill...

I've spent 90% of today on my bed sleeping. Yes, I'm sick, but nothing more than the usuals; Cough, Flu, Fever. The lack of sleep, late nights and all that stress in the past 1 month has taken a toil on my immune system, now that its all over, the virus are breaking loose.

Now I'm really sleeping to my hearts content, after taking the medication, the bed just automatically call for my presence.

Just another Extra!

The more I think of it, the more pissed I get..WHAT THE FUCK MAN! Arrgghhh...Why the fuck did i get myself involve in this crap?! Im getting out of it! Fuck everything else....

Fuck everybody!

Mummy!!!! Its Overrrrrrr!

Yeah..Finally all my papers all over~~~ Now im free like a bird!!!!

Not too free though, tmr HOBTC IPC is starting, going down to do saigang. for the next 2 weeks. Going to Ubin again. Hohoho!

Every Sem I was predict what my results would be, none of it are accurate so far. This sem I will also do the same. Hahax! Just for the fun of it. Results will be release on the 26th Dec, evening. Let's see;

PL2131 - B-
PL3233 - B-
PL3235 - B+
LL4039 - B
GEK 1500 - S/U, I would prefer a Satisfactory though.

CAP: 3.375

Not very optimistic of my results this Semester. But wadever! I off to play le!!!