1st Day of The Lunar New Year

I just woke up, after sleeping at 6+ in the morning. Checked my hp, tonnes of well wishes SMSes. Saw 2 angpows on the table, from my mum and dad. Look around home, no body is at home. They are probably at my Aunt's place. Looked into the kitchen, found a packet of CharSiew Rice, assumed that its my lunch, eating it now.

This is the 1st day of the Lunar New Year. Just like any other day.

I Not Stupid Tooooo

Watched Jack Neo's latest production "I Not Stupid 2" with dear just now after dinner. It is the 1st movie I watched in the theatres ever since the price of movie tickets rose to $9.50. I did watch other movies but the sources of these movies, i shalt discuss in too much details here. lolx..As for "I not stupid", I think it is definitely worth the $9.50.

Being skeptical about movie sequels, for they are usually not as fantastic as the 1st, this movie really made me change my opinion about sequels. Personally, I felt that this is better than "I not stupid 1". The storyline basically focus on family education this time round. Those were scenes so close to heart of Singapore teens, especially those from neighbourhood schools. It is something one from the top of the meritocracy hierachy would never understand. Parents not listening to their child enough, not communicating enough, teachers not understanding enough. Students in the N(Technical) are deem as “烂苹果”, despised by educators, parents and friends.

“烂苹果，把烂了的部分切掉，就可以再用了，如果把他丢掉，不是什么都没了？”

It has a few touching scenes that would make one tear for one moment but at the next moment make you laugh hilariously. That I think Jack Neo has done it again, in conveying his point across to his audience and not forgetting his touch of humor. It sees a society that is unforgiving, its reluctance to give others the 2nd chance, it is so in the educational system, likewise in the legal system. Is public canning effective at all? Does the child learned not to repeat the mistake again because of the shame inflicted or because he really learned what he did was wrong?

“这世上没有教不会的孩子，只有不会教得父母。。”

“养不教，父之过。教不严，师之惰。” Nurturing the growth of a child is not only the responsibilty of the teachers, it is by and large the fault of the parents for kids to grow up in an misled environment. What is the point of bring the child up but not teaching him the correct things?

This is the theme song of the movie, <一生绝望> . Read the lyrics carefully, it is very meaningful.

曲/杨波 词/梁智强
Verse:
我们肆无忌惮 我们成群结党
我们目无尊长 对什么事都不满
看着我们的成长 只会制造麻烦
我们就是一无是处你又能怎样

我们don’t give a damn那看不起的眼光
我们什么都不是 我们什么都不管
我们之间为什么会渐渐地没有语言
我们之间有道墙

学校老师束手无策父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们 就告诉自己比人家强
有多少人关心我们为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁会 替我们想想苹果为何变烂
其实我们也曾努力要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟给了我们多少希望

Chorus:
泪水已经流干，前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂，我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望

有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生绝望

A song that has written out the feelings of many out there, right from the bottom of their heart. So true, so close.

新年快乐！

Happy Lunar New Year everyone! Hope everyone will have a great year of the Dog ahead! May all your wishes be fulfilled and dreams come true.

“只要信就有， 不信就没有。。”

“只要相信，期待就会成真。。”

Capital Punishment

The case of the murder of HuangNa has been widely publicized these 2 days as the appeal of Ah Hao in regards to the death sentence is overuled, 2 votes to 1. His only chance left to revert the death sentence is the President's clemency. The views on the ground has that the evidence submitted by the prosecution is not able to fully substantiate the charge of murder and the suspect should be given the benefit of doubt in this case and thus not to be convicted.

Grant of pardon, etc. 22P: (1) The President, as occasion shall arise, may, on the advice of the Cabinet ?(2) Where any offender has been condemned to death by the sentence of any court and in the event of an appeal such sentence has been confirmed by the appellate court, the President shall cause the reports which are made to him by the Judge who tried the case and the Chief Justice or other presiding Judge of the appellate court to be forwarded to the Attorney-General with instructions that, after the Attorney-General has given his opinion thereon, the reports shall be sent, together with the Attorney-General’s opinion, to the Cabinet so that the Cabinet may advise the President on the exercise of the power conferred on him by clause (1).

In the light of the upcoming General Elections, the decision made by the President, on the advice of the cabinet, might be a crucial or critical one. The president himself is nonpartisan without a doubt. The cabinet consists of a single party majority. Enough said. Period. The recent execution of Austrailian Van Nguyen has resulted in much political discourse between Singapore and Australia following a rejection for a plead for clemency. It has created much uproar amongst nations that had abolished Capital punishment. Demostrations were staged. These are things we know not, for our protected media reported just enough to amuse us in our own ignorance.

In our 40years of independence, only 6 convicts have been granted clemency from the President. The last one in 1998. Singapore is believed to have the world's highest per capita execution rate, relative to its population. According to the UN Secretary-General's quinquennial report on capital punishment, for the period 1994 to 1999 Singapore had a rate of 13.57 executions per one million population, representing by far the highest rate of executions in the world.

Is capital punishment really neccessary to curb crime rates? Then what about the 112 countries whom had already abolished the system, with an average of 3 countries each year joining them. From 3rd world to 1st, we are indeeding moving into a gracious and open society and the most unforgiving society with the highest executions rate in the world (Jack Neo's movie "One more chance" hasn't make a impact yet). We have come so far to become the laughing stock of the others (read beyond our very own newpapers and you wont be surprised at all) but yet holding on to the mentality that we are the best. What a joke!?

Happy Birthday Ladies!

Outstanding! Done quite abit today, did another chapter of marketing a while ago. All the marketing notes are shitty-ly brief, quite abit, no, not abit, its alot of things were mysteriously left out from the notes, awaiting us to uncover them ourselves through the textbook. Wadahell! And not forgetting that the textbook is a little longer winded than it should be and it goes on and on and on...

Great news! Now my readings for my Marketing module is on par with the lectures! Not exactly that great, I've 4 other modules of readings to catch up with. I wonder how am I going to survive the Biological psyc readings, it blabbers on and on and on about the brain and all that Bio crap which doesn't spur my interest of any kind at all. And don't remind me of what is a chair and what is not. .I've yet to figure it out..lolx...

Enough of whining. The purpose of this entry is to put on record my best wishes to 2 ladies. Happy 20th Hatchday to Auntie Lena and Happy 22nd Hactchday to Jiayu!!! Hope both of you will have a great day Stay happy and pretty always!!! =)

Finally....

Great! I have covered 3 chapters of Marketing readings today! Complied some notes too! I'm so proud of myself, finally got my lazy ass moving..Lolx..Hope I will keep this up!!

Just watch an hr of webcast for Philo lecture. Don't quite understand a shit! Guess i've just landed myself into a bigger pile of shit for taking up this module. Took some notes though, I will slowly figure it all out hopefully before the exams. So how do you exactly define a chair? Is a chair a chair because we seat on it? Or is it because we seat on it thats why it is a chair? Lolx..

Autumn to all stations, Nothing further, out!

Pepper Lunch + Ice cream

Pepper Lunch is not bad I would say, for those who eats beef, most of the stuff on the menu are beef related. It is quite an innovative idea, to have something like your own teppanyaki style. The price is kindda steep though, 15 buckaronies for a set meal. I guess there is always a price to pay behind every innovation yeah?! Anyway, Thank you Auntie Lena for the treat! Even though its her birthday, she still gave me the treat nevertheless. Lolx..Hope you like your prezzie. =)

After Dinner, we went to eat Ice-cream, this Italian ice-cream where Haslinda works at in Taka, cant remember the name also. lolx...Had a scoop each, I think what Haslinda gave us was alot more than a sccop, so full! Its only $2.80/scp as compared to $4.50/scp from Hagen Daz, it is relatively cheap. lolx..Great Ice-cream, its my 1st time eating that ice-cream (Sabrina will say I suagu again, im pretty sure of that!) hahax!

Well, this girl really enjoys walking, for we walked from Taka to PS to take a train back to BoonLay. Not as far as I had walked with Anqi the other time though. Lolx..Think maybe this 2 ladies should meet up and walk all over town together! hahax..Right AnQi?!

AnQi is going to Malaysia for CNY for 5 days!!! Genting, Port Dickson etc. SO SHIOK!! Why the hell am I stuck here in SG, looking at this very LCD screen which I am looking into this very moment for the next 5days!!!!! Lolx.. She should be already on her way at this hour. Take Care and enjoy your trip!

Has Jennifer lost her way? Flew off on the 24th 2330hr to London, 12hr flight, waited for 8hr before transitting to Newcastle. Its now 27th, 1430hr, it doesn't take 3 days does it? She is supposed to leave us a blog when she lands, no entries from her as yet. Probably her luggages are in Alaska now, and she is in Brazil. Boarded the wrong flight ya?! lolx.. Hopefully she doesn't get stuck at the Terminal for decades! lolx....

Lemmme see....I should go and do some readings now instead of sitting here, waiting for nothing to appear from nothing. Emptiness...and out!

Holy shit!

oh man..what the hell am i doing here at this hour!!! Sldnt I be sleeping? Damn...

CNY is approaching..not in the mood. Wonder why as we grow older, CNY starts to lose it significance. To me, its just like any other public holidays. Cant be bothered with house visiting. No stores are opened, can only stay home and rot. Maybe meet up with some friends to chill. This year, I did not even bother to get any new clothing. Heck! Apart from 2 t-shirts dear bought for me. They are really nice. Thanks dear. One of them is a reversible shirt, one side reads "I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND" and the other side reads "I HATE MY GIRLFRIEND". Wonder which side should I wear?! hahax.!

Meeting up auntie Lena for dinner later in the evening @ taka pepper lunch (not pepper plus..lolx). Speaking of which, our HO posting is out. I'm luckily, im..posted back to my sec sch. Auntie lena and Chao Ge are also posted to my area. Great ppl!!Gonna have a great time during area events. Luckily no weirdos around. Hahax..

Time to sleep. Or its already way past the time to sleep. Sleeping disorder is a psychological disorder classified under abnormal psychology. Maybe I should seek my Prof for help. lolx..Crap....and out....

我想做个好男人

我想做个好男人

帅的标准酷的标准炫的标准我都差一点

笨了一点慢了一点胖了一点我都会承认

不要怪我不要骂我不要笑我整天碎碎念

我想说的我想要的我想做的是个好男人

新的标准新的观点新的未来要有新观念

辛苦一点诚恳一点打拚一点别人看得见

看我做的听我唱的笑我说的你就会发现

多想一会多走一会多等一会结果会改变

Chorus:
我想做个好男人虽然帅得不明显

我不会闯红灯每个脚步走得稳

我想做个好男人没有聪明比认真

给我一点掌声我会走得比较远


新的标准新的观点新的未来要有新观念

辛苦一点诚恳一点打拚一点别人看得见

看我做的听我唱的笑我说的你就会发现

多想一会多走一会多等一会结果会改变

不要怪我不要骂我不要笑我整天碎碎念

我想说的我想要的我想做的是个好男人


Chorus:
我想做个好男人虽然帅得很抱歉

可是我不埋怨总有满腔的热忱

我想做个好男人我会努力的扮演

让别人看得见标准不是永远不会变

I think the lyrics of this song is very meaningful. Maybe its because I can relate personally to the song. lolx.. iwebtunes.com is down, thats why there is no song currently. If not I would have hosted this song. lolx...Going to sleep le...好男人要去睡觉了。。晚安。。。

Not in the right mood.

Hmm..Not in the mood to do anything. Just now after blogging wanted to do my readings but was too lethargic to do so, so I ended up slacking the whole evening. Helped Sabrina with some Psyc Qns and help Lena with some editing.

Just feeling melancholious. Maybe its the medication. I forgot to mention in the earlier entry, I went to see the doctor this morning. Dad sent me to the clinic then sent me to school. The clinic opens at 8am, I reach there at 8am, there are already 3 people inside, I was 4th in queue. So many people are sick these days. I think its due to the inclement weather. My immune system has been in the doldrums these days. Has been sick for half the Dec with a bad cough recovered and now back to square one again. Is it Sleep? Stress? or Weather? I've no idea.

Let me recollect my weekend:

Sat: I went to K Box at Lucky Chinatown with dear. Sang from 2-7pm under Kstudent, so cheap only 12 buckaronies each on a Sat. Went to shop at Chinatown after that. Dear bought a straw bag, only $5. Rained cats and dogs suddenly. Was all wet. Had our dinner at Macdonalds @ Chinatown Point. Headed for home thereafter.

Sun: Woke up some time past noon. Ate lunch then went to Giant @ Pioneer Mall to get the Mee Suan ingredients for Auntie Lena's birthday celebration in hall on Mon. Went to Jurong Point to shop around in the evening with dear, met up with Sabrina and Winnie to pass them the Meesuan stuff.

Yup. Thats all about my weekend, realised something is missing from these activities? Yes! Nothing I did was related to school work. Totally slack. I wonder what can bring me back the motivation I had last semester.....

I guess not only my immune system is in the doldrums. I'm going right down myself all over again. It Suck! I can't help it! Shit happens all the time.

Tiredzz

Phew....finally got home and ended my day in school. Its such a tiring day from 9am-4pm with only an hr break in between. Worse, I only remembered got to prepare readings for Theatres only last night, start only around 12+am till 2+ then went to bed. Sickening.

I totally forgot about readings for Bio psyc tutorial, went to class today blank and unprepared. Suck Big time. Everyone else have got their textbook ready and I'm like "huh?!" "for what?!" "oh shit!" and the rest are history... My entire tutorial class is made up of 90% year 3 psyc major. Think nobody wants to take this module but its core so no choice, most of them leave it till their last semester. I'm like the only stupid fool who eagerly bidded for it in Year 1. I'm done for this time.

Last evening went over to Sabrina's hall again. Went to celebrate Auntie Lena's birthday. It was meant as a surprise for her, the cake and the Meesuan which Sabrina cooked. It was great! Apparently, Lena loved the cake so much that she plunged her whole face into the cake and savour it and she had to shower twice last night. hahax..Photographs will be posted up later.

And ya, Ms AnQi flew my kite for 2 days! Pangseh me for lectures and tutorial. Lolx..Let me account for it. Mon, she ponn-ed Philo Lecture, Today she ponn-ed Theatres lecture and Tutorial!! Tmr I'm having Philo tutorial and Theatres Prac with her. She told me she will turn up. We shall see!! lolx...

Speaking of philo tutorial tmr, I've not quite done the readings yet. Damn!..Marketing tutorial also. Need to do some 3 pages of assignment. Shit! I'm so deadly back-logged! It high time I pull up my sock!!!!!!!

Jennifer aka Ah Tiong from my HOBTC Sq is leaving for UK tonight for Exchange Program lasting a semester. Take good care of yourself k! Dun be conned by those conman!! Will miss ya! Bon Voyage!

Back to tutorials and readings...Arrgggghhhh!!! More work and less play!!!!!!

Sleep..Sleep...ZzzzzzZzz

Great! After a week of tuberlence during sleep, I finally had a peaceful sleep last night without any disruption. I slept for a good 10hr! It has been so long that I hit anything pass 6hr, not because I have no time, but simply that I cannot sleep!!! Hopefully my good peaceful sleep will prevail....

Well, Tutorials registration had ended. I've got what I wanted during the 1st round. Lucky! Last semester was alot more shitty than this. Anyway, I got to maintain my 3 day week this semester. Many thanks to Shiyun, Jacky and Anqi for their compromises in the choosing of common tutorial slots!!! Xie Xie!!!

This is the end of Sem 2 Wk 2, this sem, I have been particularly slack. So far, I have not completed any readings for lectures or after lectures. Backlogging, I'm just waiting for those readings to form a hill and collapse onto me.

Events of the week:

Tuesday- Went to Kster in Chinatown with Sabrina, Winnie and Jacky. Before that, accompanied Sabrina to Chinatown to buy CNY stuff, rained like shit, horrible. We sung from 6-11pm. Went to eat porridge for supper at the popular porridge shop in Chinatown. Missed the last train. Walked towards Clarke Quay, thought we could take the night rider home. We sat by the river side and talk and talk and talk till 2+ in the morning. Walked towards the bus-stop and found out that the night rider is only in service during weekends. Outstanding! hahax...We took a cab home in the end. Jacky followed the 2 girls back to their NTU hall to stay for the night (I stay in Jurong West, so of course I went home!).

Wednesday- Went to school for 12noon theatre practical with Anqi. 1st lesson was damn fun. Running around, playing games like "mouse and cat" and "nectar and the god". Both of which I had never played before in my life. lolx.. Lesson ended at 2pm, went to Arts canteen with Anqi to celebrate her friend birthday with cake and all, had our lunch, and slacked around in sch, printed the whole theatre studies textbook in the library. Jacky joined us later in the afternoon after his night with the girls from NTU hall because we got a meeting at 6pm. We waited 4hrs for the meeting and end up only meet for 30mins. lolx.. Had our dinner at YIH then went home.

Note: Never eat the POPIAH from NUS YIH foodcourt. Anqi and myself concluded that it SUCK! lolx..

Thursday- No lesson but went to school nevertheless. Accompanied Anqi to some new media talk in the library which I had totally no interest in. lolx..Cant wait for lunch during the talk. Went to Arts Canteen, crowded. Walked over to engine Mac. Saw Junyi and Aubrey at Mac. Waited for Jacky to end lesson at 2pm, then we proceeded to Kbox @ Clementi. lolx..KTV again! sung from 2+ to 7+pm! Had our dinner at clementi hawker and went home at 8+pm.

Friday(today)- After a good night sleep, here I am blogging about my life this week. After this, I'm going to have my lunch. Going to unit later in the afternoon.

Saturday(tmr)- Going to Kbox @ Chinatown with dear. Yes! 3 times in a week to KTV! lolx...practicing for competition ya? hahax..no lahx...Just wanna sing lor..

Alright..Thats all for now...I'm gonna have my lunch already...HUNGRY!!!!! lolx.....laterz....

And ya! I'm meeting Auntie Keng hui for Dinner next Thurs! Auntie! don't forget wor!!

Sleep Disorder

I think I'm suffering from sleep disorder. Insomnia. Last night I slept at 12midnight, woke up for no apparent reason at 4am and couldn't sleep anymore. Went to school for 10am class.

Tonight, I slept earlier. Reached home after finishing class at 6pm, had dinner, afterwhich settled down to do my marketing readings. The more I read, the more sleeply I got, went to sleep at 9+pm. And Yes! I woke up at 1am!!!!!! What the hell!!!!! 9am class later.

I think its due to the weekends. The whole weekend since Thursday, I did not sleep earlier than 6am in the morning. Even for the weekends, I did not sleep much, slept in the morning, woke up before noon or slightly after noon.

I'm gonna die very soon if this continues...I gotta get back my sleep cycle fast!!!! For now, I shall continue my marketing readings till I fall asleep. ZzZzZz. Its working..Even speaking of readings I can feel the drowsiness setting in..lolx..laterz...

Smile~

Unhappiness arises when ones needs is not satisfied by his wants. When one cannot come to terms with reality, he begins taking up different defence mechanism to gratify his needs.

Many a times, we are lost in the process of growing up. We will missed a step somewhere somehow, and that step we missed would in some ways deter us from taking the next step out. Therefore, we cannot move on and out of this trap.

What we fail to see is, if we found what is the cause of missing this step and pre-emptive measures are taken not to miss it again, we could have moved on much easily.

Easier said than done. Sometimes we feel that we have moved on, passed a certain stage in life, able to see things in a different light but when something else hits you, it hits you cold and hard, you fall back to where you left off, and start wondering did you even moved on in the 1st place.

The fact is, everyone of us had already moved on. Pushing it all to where it last ended is just the reaction of the brains to maintain in the comfort zone. You would have found that you are able to react and handle this setback better than the last time. You have not fallen back, you have just became stronger.

Growing up is a great test to ones' confidence. With increasing experiences in life, it can built upon greater confident for one to face the harshness of reality, on the contarary, increasing experiences might also shatter dreams and cease hopes, deterring the confidence to move on.

Nevertheless, we should all take any experiences in life as a learning opportunity, even if it shatters our dreams and dampens our hopes, we should still make the best out of everyday.

Find the root cause of your unhappiness for it is this cause that is giving you the displeasure in the other things you commit in. Gratify this cause and you would find this world a better place to live in. :)

Anqi, this entry is made in response to your blog. Probably its just one of the bad days and by the time you read this, you are prob okie already..lolx..anyway..its life...and shit happens all the time..gonna take in in your own stride... smile~

New skin

I forgot to mention yesterday, I've changed to a new blogskin. Haha..what an understatment..its so obvious...Anyway, this is one of those default blogskins you can find on blogger. I still find these default skins more user friendly and more readable as compared to those d/led from blogskins.com. Or maybe I'm just to lazy to search for a new skin. lolx.. The last Chicken Little skin, I also never search, I went to the webby, saw this top 10 most d/led, top of it all was Chicken little, so I d/led it. hahax..

I will be sticking to this skin for the time being, unless something as kawaii as me catch my eyes...lolx..

This evening there is a TS1101e make up lecture fr 6-7pm. I'm still considering to go or not to go. Anqi is pangseh-ing me, going out on a date. hahax...

Tmr afternoon there is a marketing lecture from 2-4pm. I'm supposed to attend the tues morning slot. The lecturer did a make up on saturday for our slot due to PH and I came to know about it when it was over. So no choice gotta attend the thurs slot.

Just bought the Abnormal Psyc textbook on mon. Just by looking at the book, you would think it cost around $20+ at most $30. Wadahell!! It costs $41.70!!!!!! Can you believe it?!! A silly little abn psyc book costs 40 over bucks!!! I should write some textbooks instead of being comedian or singer..hahax...

I've got 2 more textbooks to buy. And I've just heard the marketing textbook costs $40+ also...I think the Bio psyc book is also around the same price. There goes my $$$$..Fly baby fly! lolx....

For now, I needa pack up my room. New year is approaching, needa clear up all the shit. Notes from last semester are still lying around in the room. hahax....worse than a pig sty. Well...STAND BY BED CONDITION, 3SG(NS) CHIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

不想长大。

Bu Xiang Zhang Da(Don't wish to grow up) is the title of the song by S.H.E. playing now on my blog. Coming to think about it, sometimes I wish I was still in my childhood years. Carefree and innocent. Thoughts not tainted by the corrupted world. Confined and protected by the comfort of our parents.

This song led me to think of the book titled, "Little Prince". Those who have read it will know why, for those who have not, what are you waiting for? Its a good book.

As the numerals attached to something called age increase proportionally over the years, we are exposed to more of this polluted world. Diminishing innocence sets in at a increasing rate, we are not as carefree anymore. More responsibilties to be beared.

As the counter strikes 21, the law recognises us as legal adults. From that point on, everything esle becomes a liabilty. We are no longer protected by Ignorance. Responsibilties increase, liabilities at an even faster rate.

In the irony of it all, we see the contradiction of adults having more freedom to the fact that what ever we do, we are more legally bounded. More restricted than ever. Where is the freedom so to speak?

I'm into my 3rd year ever since the counter strikes 21. I've probably transit from a cynical teenage into a even more cynical adult. It has probably reach a point whereby I'll think," hey! c'mon, thats what life is all about, why bother complaining..."

This is not supposed to be a sad entry and neither am I feeling sad right now. Let not my cynism influence you. Its always good to grow up, its just me. Oh, wat an irony again! I would like to quote my favourite quote, "Life is a contradicting Irony". This is something I came up myself so its copyrighted. If you are a follower of my blog, you would have seen this quote umpteen times already.

Singapore Idol is back! Sorry Huifen, but I'm not joining. Neither am I joining Superband. Lolx..I cant sing properly and dancing is just an excuse, I can't dance either..Hahax..and further more, I am obese!! Right Anqi?! Backing out from Superstar last season after filling up the application form did leave me with some regrets thereafter but not this time anymore. Its not my cuppa tea. I'm not suitable for this. hahax..I'm taking theatre studies this sem, maybe you will see me as a comedian some day..hahax...waiting for LIANG DAOYAN to uncover my hidden talents. I wonder why nobody call him by name these days anymore, all call him Liang Daoyan.

See! In life, there are many choices we make, many steps we take, many directions we would head for. It matters not how many steps we took before arriving at our destination, what matters most is along the way, take not the wrong step for it will bring us to the wrong destination. If you are lucky, a detour might be available and you will be back on track again, if you are not, a detour might be too long and tedious and you decide to take on this misled road forever. 一失足成千古恨。何必呢？我不想长大。。。

"我不想我不想不想长大
长大后世界就没有花
我不想我不想不想长大
我宁愿永远都笨又傻..."

The Calm after the storm

It has been a busy week. The 1st week of 2006 has just passed. Npcc unit stuff, camps, personal stuff and most importantly, the CORS. It has by far been a pleasant year, though it might be too early to judge.

Its a week of battle for me against the NUS CORS. I got outbidded for my core module twice, 800+ pts could not even get me a place. Ridiculous. Now I can only push the module to next semester. Many of my friends were forced to take up cheap modules in the end. Those 1 pointer where no one wants to take. Now its finally over, the bottomline is I've secured 5 modules. Many are still continuing the battle after the weekend, wish them all luck. My modules are as follows: PL3232(abnormal psyc), PL3236(biological psyc), PH1101E(philo), TS1101E(theatre studies) and MKT1003(marketing). None of these modules are as time comsuming as LAJ1201(Japanese), so hopefully I can do better this coming semester, wish me luck too!

Went for a team building camp as instr by outdoor consultants on wed conducted for Bukit Batok Sec. It is a all new and different experience. Away from regimentation, apart from uniformed organisation, the way to handle the students is totally different from NPCC and SAF. Its a totally new methodology of group management I've learnt and there is still a long way to go. One needs to be very motivated himself in order to bring up the morale of the students.

Went for BBQ at NTU hall 13 yesterday evening. It is our sq gathering to bid farewell to Jennifer, celebrate Sabrina's bdae and also have fun before NUS starts school. Although it rained when we started, it did not bring the morale down, in fact, when I arrived, I saw them carrying umbrellas while BBQing! What a funny sight! Afterwhich we stayed over at Sabrina's room. Played Piggie game, cards, mahjong, gossip all night long. Fun Fun and Fun! Had our breakfast at Canteen 14 in the morning before we left for home. Now that NUS is starting our semester, meet up wont be so frequent anyone, but I do hope to see everyone soon! Probably at Chingay..or even sooner. Take Care Folks!!

Recruitment drive for my unit NPCC sec 1s hit a all time low this year. Though nothing is fixed yet, the tentative number is at 29. Horrendous. But I choose to look at it in another way. My school enrolment also hit a all time low of only 240+ students with only 1 class of 23 express students. We secured slightly higher than 10% of the Sec1 enrolment.

After all these hecticness, this weekend is going to be a take-it-easy kind of thing. Got to switch back to studying mode again. Can you feel the relectance of returning to school, the thought of lectures and tutorials is beginning to make me feel sick. My only school days now are Monday and Tuesday, so next week my only school day is Monday because Tues is a PH. No! don't be envious, after the tutorial kicks in, I will be on a 3 day week, hopefully a Wednesday. For those on a 5day week, c'mon..take it easy...I've been through it last semester so I know it SUCK! hahax...

Have an outstanding weekend everyone! Enjoy the calmess and serenity after the storm before setting off toward another storm on Mon.

Clubbing 2006!

So what was the 1st thing I did when the clock striked 0000hr? I was clubbing at Devils Bar. Lolx...Not something good for New year resolutions though. Whats worse? We club hop to Shanghai at about 3am, and to end it off, I just reached home. Its 0800hr in the morning.

Chiong the entire day with dear, shawn and angeline. But this time round, I did not drink much! I only drank 4 glasses the entire night. This time I've learnt to be smarter le. Must SIAM when neccessary. End of it all, I was still able to drive back safetly. lolx.

So no more clubbing for me. The last time I clubbed was before the exams. Then I said no more clubbing till after the exams, so last night was the next time I club after exams. Now that I'm dead BROKE! I shall not club no more.

Next week is gonna be a busy week for me.
2nd Jan going for pre camp briefing, 9 to 5 at Chinese Garden.
3rd Jan going to NTU NPCC for CSSP exhibition at 10am.
4th Jan going for a 1 day camp at Chinese Garden by Outdoor consultant for BBSS.
6th Jan is Pioneer Sec CCA Orientation, gotta go down and take a look.
6th Jan evening, there is a BBQ at NTU hall 15 with Sq 4 peepz, prob our last gathering before Jenni flys to UK, to celebrate Sab bdae also, and also b4 we all get immersed into our tonnes of readings and exams.

Busy busy busy..At least its all time spent worthwhile. Realise that except the BBQ, the rest of the things I'm doing is to mould the future of our nation. 1snt that great?! I'm doing all the good deeds beginning 2006. lolx..老王卖瓜，自卖自夸。。。hahax...

For the time being, I need sleep. I think so... Later...Happy New Year once again!!!!

Reminisces of 2005...

2005 is gone in the blink of an eye. Time really files. At the beginning of the year, I'm still counting down 6months to my ORD, grumbling about how time moved really slowly and I cannot wait to ORD.

1st June 2005, ORD loh!! Finally, the long awaited day arrived. The gleam in my eyes when I collected my Pink I/C from the clerk. Walked out of camp as a civilian, never to turn back again. Gone are my army days, just like that. 2 yrs 2 mths flew by without anyone noticing.

After chucking away the field pack that has followed me for 2yrs, I embarked on the next phase of my life. I'm back to school and my backpack comes in handy yet again after being retrenched 2 yrs back.

The desire to return to school is so strong, never in my life had I wanted so much to go back to school. Semester commenced. CORS screwed up, modules screwed up, timetable screwed up, and in the end so are the results. Screwed. Semester 1 is over. Strived so hard, fell even harder, nevertheless, I will pick myself up and try again. So now that I realize, school isn't so fun afterall, maybe my Army days are the best days, when there are no worries and stress, just passing each day as it comes along, billiards and beer in the mess day and night. Carefree.

Comes the holidays. 29th HOBTC. The course that brought my year of 2005 to a remarkable end. A course that made year 2005 a memorable one. The last course to be conducted at Training Command before they move to Home Team Academy in 2006. A course that found and kept many fond memories and made many new friends. Following that is Games day, Outdoor consultants Instrs training course, NPCC night. NPCC night, the 1st DnD hosted at HQ drill shed, it is going to be the last also.

For we always say, saving the best for last, year 2005 ended with the celebrations of dear's birthday. 31st Dec 1984, 21 yrs ago, an angel was born, and it was all fated that in 2002, I met this angel and fell in love with her. For she was my meant to be my guardian angel from that moment on, till now, till always. So on this special day, 21 years later, this angel turn into a fine wonderful lady still standing by me. Happy 21st Birthday my dear. I love you.

Let all the sweet and fond memories of 2005 be kept at the back of our hearts forever, let whatever unhappiness be left at 2005, and not bring it into the new year. As we step into the new year, with our new dreams and resolutions, I hereby wish one and all success in all endeavors and a very Happy New Year.