Sunday, May 29, 2005

Sentosa!

Fantastic, went Sentosa today! Played ball, swam, sun-tanned, see gerz but not that there were many.Hahaz! The Sun is Fantastic today, super duper HOT! Got a good tan. Zhong Liang drove us to where the Sentosa Cove is, the part where they are selling plots of lands for building of apartments for residential use, to be ready by 2009. Can you believe it?! Staying in Sentosa?! Living just beside the sea, with your personal YATCH parked just outside your house?! Thats Heaven!! I just love Sentosa! Maybe I can stay there one fine day! Enough of dreaming for the moment, here are some photographs: http://autumn1983.blogs.friendster.com/photos/sentosa_280505/index.html

Thursday, May 26, 2005

The purpose to our existence

Have you ever thought of the purpose to your existence? I think the purpose to our existence is to seek happiness. No matter what we do, what we say, our brain will only react to achieve 2 things, 1. To evade sufferings, 2. To seek happiness. What I mean by evading sufferings? To get away from any unhappiness or displeasure. Let's say you just failed your exams, how would you react to this news? You would probably want to get over it, forget about it, some do it by engaging in different activities, regardless of the activity you engage in, the sole purpose is to put you out of this misery, so that you can move on in life. And our body is reacting in such a way to get out of misery, at the same time, we are seeking happiness. Why do we want to achieve so many things in life? Why do we hope for so many pleasant things to happen in our life? The bottom line is when we achieved what we want, when our hopes come true, we will be happy. You may think that what I am writing here is a naive and shallow way of thinking but I think this is the basic fundamental to our existence, to be happy. What more purpose do you have in life, if one that you are leading is an unhappy one? Kaijun will tell me it is wisdom that is important. Wisdom is no doubt an important factor, a factor that the brain seeks to attain happiness. When you are happy, you find meaning in the things you do, and when you find meaning in the things you do, you will be happier and thus the purpose to our existence is to seek happiness.

Monday, May 23, 2005

Mission failed but I'm happy!

Time now is 0551 hrs 230505, I just got home from my night cycling expedition. Hmm, not really a expedtion, just a little trip to East Coast Park and back home. Set off at 0030 hrs, leisurely cycled to ECP with 3 of my other friends. Took about 2hrs, so got there at about 0230hrs. Rest, ate Mac, looked around and we headed for home at 0345hrs. This time round, we decided to take on a time trail, and see how much time is needed to get home from ECP, we are all staying in Jurong West FYI. The last record time we set was more than 2yrs back when I was still in JC, which reads 55mins. 2yrs apart, we wanted to see how much we had lag behind. Going on a reasonably fast speed, I reached Gleneagles Hospital at the 30min mark. I maintained my pace through Holland Village to Bouna Vista and arrived at the old Police dog Unit at the 45min mark. From then, I was demoralised as there is no way to get back to my destination in 10mins from where I was. Slowed down tremendously from then on. In the end, none of us 4 managed to break or maintain the record of 55mins. 1st guy reached Shell Boon Lay(our link-up pt) in 1hr8mins, I came in 2nd at 1hr12min and the last guy showed up at 1hr18min. All our stamina and endurance had dropped since then therfore all of us failed our mission of breaking the old record. Nevertheless, It was a very good workout for all of us. We need more trainings!
Went to Pulau Ubin on Saturday morning. Brought along our bicycles with the intention to wack the terrain over there and also appreciate the nature, as if I had not had enough of it during my 2yrs in the army. Maybe I did not learn to appreciate nature back then when we were thrown into the jungle for 3days. I mean who would? So now, I am learning it the expensive way! Going to Ubin on the bumboat cost $2/pax and an extra $2 for a bike. So thats a total of $8 to and fro. Quite enjoyable there other than the part which i fell. I was doing some stupid stuns when i fail to do a proper landing resulting in my bike "Endo" and I landed up with bruises all over. Luckily I knocked into a big blue barrel and fell, if not I would have landed up in the river. It was that close! But all and all, it was fun over there, definitely good for amateur bikers, I still prefer the Bukit Timah Trail.
Now I am so tired, I am going to sleep le. Happy Vesak Day one and all. Another thing is, I've changed my email add because I cancelled my pacific internet acct and subscribe for maxonline. For those who had not been updated, my new email add is autumn_0109@yahoo.com.sg , and my MSN is boiboi_0109@hotmail.com. Thats all folks!
"Learn to have money work for you rather than you work for money."

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Self Improvement

Have not been updating for days, been busy nowadays with upgrading myself, trying to learn more things with my excessive time anyway. Been listening to movtivational talks by CHEN AN ZHI, for those who don't know him, he is a reknown speaker in Asia, he is Anthony Robbin's Asia Representative and student.
Pt 1: To succeed, one must believe that the past does not represent the future, when you fail your exams 10 times in a row, what does it signifies? NOTHING! yes! It signifies nothing about your future because the past does not represent the future, failing now and before does not mean that one would not succeed in future.
Pt 2: To succeed, one must believe that whatever that you cannot attain now, in the near future, you are bound to get something better.
Pt 3: One must always believe that there is nothing such as "FAILURE", only "TEMPORARILY STOP SUCCEEDING".
Pt 4: In order to succeed, one must DO THINGS THAT OTHERS DO NOT WANT TO DO, DO THINGS THAT OTHERS ARE AFRAID TO DO and DO THING THAT OTHERS HAD NEVER DONE BEFORE. Before Anthony Robbin became successful, he was a toliet washer.
Hmm..There are more things I've learnt but the above are the few more pertinent points. I am also reading this book titled " Rich Dad's The Business School-For people who like helping people. The author is Robert T.Kiyosaki also written by him was "Rich Dad Poor Dad". The book I am currently reading is about networking marketing, the author gives us a inview of network marketing, and the reasons why he support network marketing. It also gives us an insight of whether we are suitable for this marketing style. There is a story in the book which I felt interesting and truly agree and it goes:
Henry Ford, founder of The Ford Motor Company, he was not a well educated man and like Thomas Edison(Lightbulb inventor and founder of General Electric), was often ridiculed by the so-called intellectual society because of his lack of formal education. Once, Henry Ford was asked to summit to a test by so-called smart people from the world of academics. On the appointed day, a group of smart people came in to give him an oral test. They wanted to prove he was ignorant. The test began by one scholar asking him a Qn such as what is the tensile strength of the rolled steel he used? Ford, not knowing the answer, simply reach for the phone on his desk and called in his Vice president who knew the answer. The VP came in, Ford asked him the Qn, the VP gave the ans the panel wanted. The next smart person asked another Qn and again Ford called in another staff to answer the Qn. This process went on untill finally one of the smart persons on the panel shouted,"See, this proves you are ignorant! You don't know the ans to any of the Qn we asked you." Henry Ford reportedly replied, "I DON'T KNOW THE ANSWERS BECAUSE I DO NOT NEED TO CLUTTER MY HEAD WITH THE ANSWERS YOU SEEK. I HIRE SMART YOUNG PEOPLE FROM YOUR SCHOOLS WHO HAVE MEMORIZED THE ANSWERS YOU EXPECT ME TO HAVE MEMORIZED. MY JOB IS NOT TO MEMORIZE INFOMATION THAT YOU THINK IS INTELLIGENCE. MY JOB IS TO KEEP MY HEAD CLEAR OF SUCH CLUTTER AND TRIVAL FACTS SO THAT I CAN THINK." At that pt, he asked the smart people from the world of academics to leave.
End of Story. Quoting from Henry Ford, " Thinking is the hardest work there is. That is why so few people engage in it" . i really think what he said is damn true! Screw you damn scholars! I recall my JC principal Mr Quek, I remember he always like to say make sure you guys get a gd testimonial, a testimonial is so very important so that when your prospective employer look at testimonial, you would stand a higher chance of securing a job, blar blar blar...and I would always think, I do not need a testimonial because I would be the one reading peoples' testimonial. I WILL BE!
"The richest people in the world build networks. Everyone else is trained to look for work"

Monday, May 16, 2005

Comfort zone

Said of wanting to get a job some few weeks ago, till now I have not move my arse to a single job interview. 2yrs in the army had really made me very lazy, lazy to do anything but eat and sleep, lazy to dress up properly when I go out, simply laidback attitude. Now that its over, I hate to get out of this comfort zone. It had somehow or rather become part of my life, now leaving the army is like losing something close to you. Its a very complex feeling. You feel happy on one hand because you have been there, done that and now its finally over, days on in the field, days feeding the mosquitoes in LCK, days eating combat ration that taste worse than shit i supposed. On the other hand, it signifies the beginning of the next stage of life. Its that slap on your face to tell you to wake up, get your arse moving and do something to your life before you start defecating for all the wrong purpose. I am currently rotting away each day of my life, letting the maggots slowly feed on me untill I no longer exist anymore.
I MUST GET OUT OF THIS COMFORT ZONE! NOW! IMMEDIATELY! I need some level of stress to push me on, I need to get back the momentum in life. The Earth continues to spin, it will not stop to wait for anyone. I gotta keep up with its pace.

Friday, May 13, 2005

Sick

I am sick. Down with a flu and cough. Feeling feverish the entire day. Back ache like never before. It must be the inclement weather the past 3 days, throughout the 3 days, my uniform was never once dry, its either dampened with perspiration or drenched with rain. On top of the weather, the other factor was my lack of proper sleep. Sleeping at weird hours in the day, and waking up at odd hours in the night. Feeling shitty. I got to reach East Coast Park Macdonalds at 1830 later in the evening for my ORD function. Cannot take it anymore, think i am going to fall into a long period of sickness. When the body cannot match with the surrounding factors, it will succumb it it. My body is still trying to fight, and the moment it succumb, i shall rest in peace.

Monday, May 09, 2005

I'm back

I have just returned from where the air is fresher, the view is panaromic, the ambience is captivating. I was mesmerised by the "city of entertainment" it is so called. The theme park was especially intriguing, with all those near death experiences at the thrill rides. The temperature is cool, far from what the Singapore weather provides. One thing bad about the place, food is expensive. A plate of chicken rice would cost RM11.00 (S$5+), so I stick to Fastfood throughout the stay which the price is closer to our own fastfood restaurants here.
I did not waste a cent in the Casino!hahaz! I only went into the Casino to take a look, walk around. I walked into the Casino at 2 in the morning, the whole place was crowded! Sacrifice sleep to gamble, I wonder? There is this similarity in most of the faces in the crowd, there is this auntie in particular which I saw, she was having a hand at blackjack, she was losing for 4-5 games straight and she had this frustrated and angry face, that is the similarity amongst the crowd. No doubt, there were a few happy and smiling faces, must have won quite abit, but there were definitely more of displeased faces. Ling, ppl go to a casino to win big bucks? Did I hear you wrongly? hahaz...nvmz. I think people do go to Casinos with the mentality of winning big bucks, but more often than not, they losing big bucks instead.
Hmm..I talking about casinos again. Shall moved on. Gotta go back camp tonite. Screw up! Tomorrow Im on leave, but I gotta go back, Why? Because SAF has screwed up once again. How can anyone actually trust the Singapore Armed Forces, to fight effectively, efficiently, and agressively against whoever that is attacking us, for a simple fact that, SAF cannot even settle simple adminstrative matters during peacetime and expect soldiers to return to camp for some silly briefings amidst their leave. Some kind of leadership up there, Mr Teo? Please, people out there, please listen up, Never trust the SAF, never, in any case of emergency, please run far far away. No doubt, I would still fight, not for the country, but for my families and loved ones.
But afterall, I going back camp for the 2nd last time and its only 2 days! The last time would be the day I collect my IC! Which is only 23 days away! So screw SAF for the last time ever!
The previously posted entry is the lyrics of a song by Li Sheng Jie titled " ?? ? " . Its a very nice song with meaningful lyrics and Im trying to learn this song currently.hahaz. Laterz!

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Friday, May 06, 2005

2years 9months

Is 2yrs 9mths considered long? 2yrs 2mths in the army is considered damn damn long, so I would think that 2yrs 9mths is a long period of time. Why in particular 33mths? Today, yes today, the 6th of May 2005, my gf, Shiqi, and I are celebrating our 33mths together. Started 8mths before my enlistment, on the 6th of Aug 2002, this relationship has followed through my NS years, been through thick and thin, suffered through my numerous burnt weekends, cascaded through joy and sadness, inculcated with much love. She has always been there for me when I most needed her, she has accompanied me through the downs of my life, she has also shared the joys of my life. For all that I've done wrong in the past 33months and brought to you misery, for all that I've done wrong bringing you unhappiness, I shall say I'm Sorry, please forgive my childishness, my outrageous temper, my stupidity. For those many more months ahead, I wanna say I LOVE YOU. Happy 33rd month!
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Casinos

Long awaited for, tonight I will be leaving Singapore for Malaysia Genting Highlands. I will return on only Sunday evening. Its only a 1 night stay up at Gentings to enjoy the cool air and to getaway from boring Singapore. Might pay ZOUK KL a visit. I think the Casino is not a place for me. Little bets now and then is fine with me but placing huge bets in a casino is definitely not my game, moreover, I do not have that much cash to be wasted in this kind of senseless place. I am just interested in the theme park. Those thrill rides are awaiting me and I wonder which ride would scare the shit outta me.
Sometimes i just wonder why do people visit a casino and give the casino all their hard earned money when they know that the probability of winning is that low. A casino is set up, out rightly to win all your money so that they would earn and profit. If you are filthy rich and have no where to spend your god damn money, why don't you donate it to charity or if you don't mind, give it to me, I spend the money wisely on your behalf. But if you are fucking poor, can't even make ends meet, have a few mouths to feed at home, I do not see any god damn fucking reason why you would visit a casino. Neither ways, I do not condone the act of visiting a casino, it just doesn't make any sense. One might say its for pure entertainment, I think there are many other forms of entertainment, golf for example, is an expensive form of entertainment, but it is definitely much healthier than immersing thyself in a casino. WHAT A BRAIN?!
Whats worse? Singapore is going to open not 1 but 2 Casinos!! Can u believe it? All but for economic benefits. Create Jobs opportunities, some 10000 over jobs would be created, at the expense of maybe losing just say, 50 families homogeneity, social instability - loan sharks lurking around the casinos preying for their potential victims, mafias in Singapore? Haven't we seen enough of social problems in countries infamous for their casinos namely Macau, LazVegas etc? Aren't we just adding ourself to the list? All these and more in the name of economic benefits? In the name of creating jobs opportunities? In the name of promoting tourism? Will collecting a mandatory cover charge of $100 or more be effective? If one is to visit a Casino and try his luck, what is 100buckaronies to him in the first place.Negligible period. He would just take it take he had just lost 100bucks and going in with the mentality that he will win back that 100bucks! Isn't that worse? Hasn't that complicates matter? All right, I might be cynical here, I might sound kinda extreme here, maybe there are really benefits where our leadership has foresaw and I had not. That's why I am still blogging here, that's why i am not the one calling the shot, Mr Lee? Maybe that's why Singapore is one of the richest country on this planet called EARTH. Maybe 1 fine day, I will be issuing white papers in the Parliament instead of sitting here in the comfort of my room, typing to no one in particular, complaining about nothingness, emptiness, into blank space.
I shall be less cynical, maybe again, maybe Mr Lee has made the right choice. And of course, we all hope that he did.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

To be or not to be

Used to be together 6 years back, guy is a poly student, gal is sec 3. Gal went up to sec 4, Olevels year, felt too committed to this relationship, needs to concentrate more on her Olevels. So guy told her to put priority on her studies and shall hang out less together. Eventually, due to the lack of committment and communications, this relationship drifted apart and in the end they lost total contact of each other. 6 years past, guy still thinks of gal. Guy decided to try locating gal and resume contact. Guy went onto friendster, managed to find gal. Gal is in a relationship, intimate photos of gal with current boyfriend are posted, guy is devastated, guy did not expect this kind situation to happen, lost and know not what to do now. Guy is not sure if he should leave gal a msg, to regain contact, guy is afraid to take NO as an answer,guy does not want to be just friends with gal, guy wants leave memories as sweet rather than to spoil everything. Memories is all that guy has left. Guy lacks the confident. What should guy do?
The above mentioned is a true story based on the life of Mr XXX(name has been changed to protect the identity this guy), my beloved friend and bunkmate. XXX, like Joel, Minghui and I were telling you, GO FOR IT! All you have to do is leave her a msg on friendster. Who knows, you might get unexpected results. If all else fails, the least you could be are friends, sweet memories still remain. Get an answer straight and move on with life rather than suffering longer. Do it and live without regrets rather than missed the chance and regret for life. Remember that the 2nd mouse that did not give up always gets the cheese. Live like the 2nd mouse. I know all these are easy to say, but infact they are difficult to carry out. Think through it, muster up all the courage you have and JUST DO IT! If you succeed, we will all be happy for ya, if you fail, afraid not, you still have US! Remember, "A man gonna do what a man has to do, afraid not". You have our support.
Sometimes I wonder, Is it fortunate to be in love or it is a mishap? It can bring a person up so high but it can also make him fall from great heights and never recover. People always say that to be loved is much better than to love. I think it doesnt matter either way because when love happens, its a 2 way thing. To love but when the other party's feelings are not mutual, does it feel so great to reject others? I reckon not. It suck to be rejected and it also suck to reject others, by rejecting others, you are causing misery to befall on him/her but if you accept him/her, you will feel miserable because the feeling is not mutual. So its a 2 way thing. Love is really blind, it sees not what others would see and it see what others would not see.
" This bud of love, by summer's ripening breath, May prove a beauteous flower when next we meet. "
William Shakespeare