Darkness

As the sun sinks into the horizon; my world slips into darkness.
As the dim moonlight illuminates my path; I embark on this melancholic walk of life ruminating into the future.
Blinded to what the future holds; everything else seems behind the blinds.
As one blind leads another blind; I can only be lead through this dark walk of my life.
My tears are slipping down my cheeks; my life is torn as I take this slip.
No one can save me from this fall; I can only pick myself up yet again.
Can I just remain fallen?
Wei Wen

Will you really be there?

Title: Would You Be There
Singer: Redwan Ali

If I were blue; would you be there for me.
And whisper in my ear that's okay.
Would you stand by me; let me hold you tight.
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good; will you slow dance with me.
And touch my lips with tender loving care.
Would you die for me.
Would you run with me;
and never look back.

Would you be there to love to be with me.
Would you swear that your love is always true.
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to love to be with me.
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there

If I'm away, would you still think of me?
And wish that you could hold me now
But would you die for me
Would you run with me all the way

Would you be there to love to be with me.
Would you swear that your love is always true.
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away

Would you be there to love to be with me.
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true.
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away
Would you be there for me

Sad sad day

Today is a sad and devastating day..its so sad that nobody will ever understand..maybe i will never be happy ever again..shall see then..its a sick sad world..or maybe its me thats sick..sick sad me...:-( :-( :-( :-( :-( :-(

New Jobby!!

Gotta new job! Thought I gonna rot through the rest of the holidays but who knows, 2 days after I quitted, I got a job! Got this through some strings pulled by Queenie through her agency.

Working at CitiBank at Milenia Tower, doing some data entry job. Basically staring at the documents and the monitor the entire day. This is my 2nd Office admin job. Never really like an office job, the last and 1st I had was 4 years back before enlisting, at MOE, god, that was boring. This current one is still okay..well who knows, I'm only on the 2nd day. They only need me till end of June. Not to long on a boring job, not too short also.

Which is great, cuz I had initially planned to slack my entire July away till sem starts in Aug. So I can think and plan carefully what modules to take next sem and my timetable so as to not screw up my CAP. Its sickening that 1 mod taken wrongly, will cause the entire downfall of the semester's result. Like Yr 1 Sem 1, my Japanese Lang C+ caused me shit. Yr 2 Sem, my law mod got a C, caused my CAP to drop. NOW Yr 3 Sem 1, I'm not going to allow that to happen one more time. NO WAY!!!

Laterz!

Work sucks

I resigned from my promoter job..Disgusted by people at the workplace...Dumb managment who knows nuts and like to order people to do this and that, brainless...c'mon..if i were years older and is in their job, I would have been their bosses already for god sake..

Colleagues are dumb too...I wouldnt even call them colleagues, we are employed by different bosses and it just so happened that we are working at the place. So wada the fuck..don't act like you are my boss...I think basically those guys are losers enough to be stuck in Carrefour PS, in this small little appliance dept for years. Step out into the world to have a glimpse, and realised that you are nothing. This is a place where no rational sales persons would wanna set foot on, once there, everyone knows you are condemned..thatz why only part timers go there.

This feeling just sucks, to have dumb people on top of you, telling you to do things. They are not even more educated than you, they might not even be smarter than you, they might not even be more experienced than you in the line...And the only reason they are on top of you is they just thought they are..In fact, they are nothing..nothing more than peanuts?

Ressssultssssss are OUT!

Alright, results are finally out on Sat. Heaves a sigh of relief...Not quite what I expected, I had expected it to suck big time, but guess im wrong this time. This semester results is by far the best outta my 4 Sems in NUS. Here goes:

PL3241 Personality and Individual Differences -- A
PL3239 Industrial and Org Psy ----------------- B+
PL2132 Statistics 2 ----------------------------- B+
PL3234 Developmental Psy -------------------- B
GEK1519 Sci of Music -------------------------- B+

CAP: 3.61

Hoooowhoooooo....my CAP improve after suffering a drop last sem. It finally crossed the 3.5 mark, finally in the 2nd lower region. Hadnt expected my IO psy to get B+, I screwed up one of the two exams qns, answering totally different stuff. Hmm...my 2nd qn must have scored quite well. If only I didnt screw my qn 1, there should be at least an A-. lolx.. Expected Stats to get and A but ended up with B+ instead. Sci of Music got B+, all thanks to dear Queenie...if she hadnt helped me with the MIDI project, I think im screwed!!!! Thanks a million Queenie! I LOVE YOU!!!!

All this just means that I gotta work doubly hard next sem to maintain that CAP, and triply hard to improve that CAP... hohoho! Way to Go!!!!!! Looking at it from Sem 1, it has really come a long way, from 3.40 to 3.45 dropped to 3.43 to currently 3.61...Phew!!!!

Wasssup with life these days??

Well..working for the 3rd wk now...sucks...

Work suck...
Sales suck...
Some People at work suck...
Results releasing this Sat morning...it gonna suck too I guess, it all comes in a package...
Thats close to everything already...

Been exercising a hell lot since the vacations...lost 3kgs already..

Tmr is Shawn's graduation ceremony at SP. Im invited, so its my off day tmr.

Laterss....

Shitty day....Shitty days....

These 2 days have been leading a healthy lifestyle. Yesterday afternoon went swimming with Queenie ger..At night went to play soccer and today went for a 3km run....And the result, whole body muscle ache after being laidback for more than half the semester without exercising. Have not clear my IPPT for this year, got to clear it before Sep, got to book before school reopens.

Today is actually quite a shitty day..Shitty in the morning...Shitting in the evening...Full of Shit..reallly...shit happens all the time but when shit happens on you, it makes you feel worse. I guess I cleared most part of the shit, but still ended up feeling shitty. Life still goes on with or without shit. Who would really give a shit to what happen to you anyway.

What do one value as important in their lives? Family? Friends? Love? Money? Career? These beliefs and values form up a certain hirerachy of principles in which one guides his life with. Which is more important than which? Which can be sacrificed at the expense of another in times of dilemma. If one is very clear of what he values most in life, there will never be a conflict of interest. If family is of top concern, it supercedes everything else, when one have to make a judgement between family or friends or money, family takes priority.

And What would you do or feel when you found out that you have been placed right at the bottom of this hierarchy, everything else overwrites you. Your pure existence is just to make up the numerical or statistical value in the population. Whats worse when to the contrary to being placed at the bottom, you placed that at the top of your own hierarchy. Thatz life...Shit happens all the time...Disappointed.

I'm starting work on thurs le..Can slack no longer le....Time to earn some big bucks out there. Queenie is starting work on thurs too at Citibank, 8-5 job, completely different working hrs and days as my job. Shit happens all the time, see I told you..I wont even see her on my OFF day..Actually thought Monday was suppose to be her free day, but now it has become my shitty day. Shit happens all the time again. Mon Tues Wed Thurs Fri Sat Sun...Everydayyyyyyyy...is a shittttty dayyyyyyy.....

Nothing further Out! Out! Out! Out to YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!