Shopping! Shopping! Shopping!

Screw the last post that got screwed somewhere in the 3rd dimensions after I published, now I gotta retype...

Had a great day shopping today with Sabrina, with Winnie joining us later in the afternoon. Its really enjoyable shopping with them, I just stood at the fitting room and they will bring me tonnes of clothes for me to try on. I tried on at more than 10pieces of clothes at Project Shop and at least 5 pieces at AX. Lolx... And I just chose and bought from whatever they had chosen. Thank you my 2 dear ladies for accompanying me to shop and all the clothes you have chosen for me. lolx.

While waiting for Sabrina to come at Orchard Mrt, was asked to do a marketing research survey done by this company ACORN. Research on Men's hygenie products from haircare to shaving pdts etc. Quite a long one, think it lasted for 15-20mins, result? A free Giodano T-shirt for doing the survey. Not a bad deal. Did not know about the gift initially, only got it after I finished everything. Think the company that engaged ACORN to do this market survey is GATSBY. The lady keep asking me about GATSBY products, which sadly, I dont use any of them. Lolx.

Spent a great amount of money today. Now I am officially BANKRUPT. I have to live on bread and water from now on. Anyone wants to treat me to lunch or dinner, please do so generously and just give me a call.

Lets see what I've got today:

02 x AX T-shirts: $138
02 x Proj Shop Shirts: $139.20
01 x Bilabong T-shirt: $39.90
01 x Fox Men Bermudas: $34.30
01 x WH bermudas: $53
01 x Rauph Lauren Socks: $19
Total amount spent: S$423.40

I spent 400 over bucks in 6hrs! Feeling: SHIOK!!! Aftermath: Huge damage in the bank account. Consequence: Filed for banruptcy and surviving on bread and water. After shopping we went to DING TAI FENG for dinner, the ladies treat. Thanks for the treat ladies, it was good dinner. When I get lifted from Bankruptcy then I treat you all k!

Had a busy week. The rest of the week is gonna be busy too, all the way till next Friday I'm fully booked.

Thurs 27th July: Meeting up Kaijun and Co to play cards.
Fri 28th July: .22 revolver shooting compeition range duties at HTA, 1300 to 1800hr
Sat and Sun, 29-30th July: Persuasion Seminar, 2 full day event.
Mon 31st July: Sucks to the CORS module bidding, Rd1a.
Wed 2nd Aug: CSSP CIP @ matric fair NUS, 0900-1700hr
Thurs 3rd Aug: Sentosa trip with Sabrina and Co.
Friday 4th Aug: Unit Parade, Meeting up with Angel for coffee after parade.

A busy man I am.

Met up with Kahheng on Mon. Had a long long chat the entire afternoon. Talked about everything under the sun. Missed those days where we sat next to each other in class in sec sch. Take care bud. See you soon.

Tired

Just got home after a 3 day 3 night NTU NPCC Freshman Orientation Camp. 1st night of camp in NTU, never sleep at all. Went back Unit for NDP rehearsal in the morning, went back NTU after the rehearsal. 2nd night of camp at Sentosa, only slpt an hour. Tired. Going to catch up on my sleep. Update again.

Meeting Kahheng at Jurong Point tommorow at 1pm.

Laterzzzz....Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Meaningful excerpts from a website

In love, we win very rarely, but when love is true, even if you lose, you still win just for having the tingle of loving someone more than you love yourself.

There comes a time when we stop loving someone, not because that person has stopped loving us but because we have found out that, they'd be happier if we let go....

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss?This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN.

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind, but keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world. It's the beginning of a new life.

Happiness lies for those who cry those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of the people who have touched our lives.

A great love? It's when you shed tears and still you care for them, it's when they ignore you and still you long for them. It's when they begin to love another and yet you smile and say, "I'm happy for you." If love fails, set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and fly again. Remember you may find love and lose it, but when love dies, you never have to die with it.

The strongest people are not those who always win but those who stand back up when they fall. Somehow, along the course of life, you learn about yourself and realize that there should never be regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.

Loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand, not what you see but how you feel, and not how you let go but how you hold on.

It's more dangerous to weep inwardly rather than outwardly. Outward tears can be wiped away while secret tears scar forever. ..

It's best to wait for the one you want than settle for one that's available. It's best to wait for the right one because life is too short to waste on just someone.

Tree, Leaf and Wind

"Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?"

Sometimes its not a matter of whether or not Tree asked Leaf to stay. When the stem that joins Leaf to Tree is weaken due to certain reasons, no matter how much Tree asked Leaf to stay, Leaf will still leave sooner or later. Tree might be extend Leaf's stay, but the weakened joint is a weakened joint, it will never to as strong as it used to be. Leaf will not be happy living in such adverse conditions so it might be better indeed for Tree to let go.

Wind's pursuit is just a minor factor affecting Tree's decision to let go. Somehow, Wind's pursuit acts a catalyst in this reaction. If Leaf is firmly rooted to Tree, no matter how strong is Wind's pursuit, Leaf will not depart. Sometimes, even when Tree is being uprooted after a storm, Leaf will sticks with Tree, maybe this is what they call "Till death do us part".

The root of the problem lies in what happened to the joint that binds Leaf to Tree. That is what Tree wants to know now, so as to prevent future leaves from leaving. Speculations only bring about part of the answer. Only Leaf will have the true answer behind everything.

The fault lies not in Wind and neither does it lies with Leaf, I think the root of the problem lies with Tree. A lack of nutrients supplied from Tree to Leaf causes the joint to weaken. Tree has probably taken Leaf too much for granted and thus did not bother to supply sufficient nutrients to Leaf.

Wind did pursue, Tree indeed didnt ask her to stay. Leaf left....Why didnt Tree ask Leaf to stay? Because Tree can no longer supply nutrients to Leaf, letting her leave for somewhere where there are more nutrients.

Sidenote: Suddenly recalled this story about Tree, Leaf and Wind. The above is just a personal thought process.

Mahjong!!

Hohoho! Went to KJ place to play mahjong this afternoon. KL is supposed to cook lunch for us, but she is too lazy!!!!! PIG! So we end up having lunch outside. Started mahjong session after lunch. Hohoho! It is of great pleasure to win money from the 3 ladies.lolx...Paiseh? Feel bad? Ehhh..Not at all! lolx....I never bully them and cheat their money in case you are wondering. They are good at the game too! I was just a little luckier. Actually only win $12, not alot also.

Next week meeting up again to play cards. These ladies are really gambling addicts man! lolx..Always gamble! Hehe..This time gonna play DaiDee, they still don't know they are playing with the KING OF DAIDEE...tsk tsk tsk...Well shalt speak so soon, maybe they are all Queens of Daidee, then I will lose my pants off. lolx.

Hmm..Module Bidding starting soon, have not thought of what modules to take for next semester. Only decided on my core modules, the other modules have not given it a thought yet. Shall look into it soon. CORS bididng, another round of unneccessary stress and trauma!! lolx.

Meeting up with Kahheng on Monday. Have not seen him in a long time. He is gathering a few of our sec sch classmates. Thanks for your concern, im really okay le. And thank you Peijun for your concern too! Hope you are happy in your current job!

Sometimes it really touches me, to have so many friends, dropping me msges every now and then, asking me if I'm coping ok. Really thank you all! Im coping fine!!

Now I'm waiting for KJ's call. Wondering if she is coping okay. Sorry, I wasnt able to pick up your call and render you help when you need it most. I was out for a run, bad timing for a run I guess, so sorry. I will give you a listening ear anytime you need them okay! Just call me!!

I'm currently reading this book by Adam Khoo, "MASTER YOUR MIND, DESIGN YOUR DESTINY". Adam Khoo earned his 1st million dollars at the age of 26, from a sec sch drop out to VJC and to 1st class Hons NUS grad and currently owning 4 companies, uses Neuro Linguistic Programming techniques to help thousands of people succeed in their own field. A book worth reading.

Another book in hand which I will start reading after this Adam Khoo's book is by Donald J.Trump, "Think like a Billionaire". I've been injecting myself with loads of knowledge from all these self-improvement books that I've been reading. But reading them is one thing, practicing them is another. Its hard, practicing them requires a large magnitude of changes to my current life. I'm trying nevertheless, step by step, enroute success!

Busy Busy

Gonna be busy this coming 2 weeks. Keep me occupied.

20/07 - Thurs: Meeting KJ for Mahjong.
21/07 - Fri: Dating Ms Yuen for Dinner after parade.
21-23/07 - Fri night to Sun: Freshman Orientation Camp @ NTU and Sentosa
25/07 - Melissa's birthday!
26/07 - Dating Sabrina to go shopping!!!!
29/30/07 - Success Persuasion Seminar!!
31/07 - CORS Bidding Round 1A !!!! SUCKS!!!!

两个不同世界的人。。。

两个不同世界的人，在一起一定会痛苦而不会幸福吗？怎样才称得上是两个世界的人？幸福与痛苦的定义又是什么呢？这几个问题在心中徘徊了很久很久，明确的答案我还不知其然，但多少也有点概念吧。

根据佛家的观点，人的一生都是在逃离痛苦，同时也在寻找快乐。逃离了痛苦并不表示一定快乐，快乐是必须自己寻找和掌握的。那两个世界的人在一起的痛苦怎么办呢？它不是用逃避就能解决的问题，双方一起的努力是必然的，互相牵就与谅解，会把痛苦转化为快乐。这不是很艰难吗？肯定是，这我不否认，只要任何一方放弃了，觉得对方不能给予自己所要的幸福时，其他的也不必多说了。一个巴掌拍不响，必然的，这是双方面的错，自我检讨是无可避免的。失败绝对不是成功之母，失败后的检讨与改善，才是成功之母。

那怎样才称得上是两个世界的人呢？是宗族？宗教？社会地位？年收入？还是年龄的差役？是谁把这条线画上的呢？我觉得是自己吧。当你认为两个人是属于不同世界的人时，那就把原本一条模糊的线加深了。所谓，凡人心所能想象，并且相信，它终究成为事实。

同世界的人在一起，一定幸福吗？未必。不同世界的人在一起，必定痛苦吗？也未必。一切都须要两个人一起的努力，寻找两人所要的幸福。在不同的世界里，我选泽了放弃，让你能寻找你同样世界里，能让你幸福的人。

写了一堆，不是什么至理名言，也没什么墨水可言，只是一番心里话，没有伤害任何人的意识。
想想，我好久没用中文写作了。不只英语差，华语也越来越烂，还是去睡觉好了。晚安！

Shopping Spree

Went up company this afternoon for a session with Yannie Jie. Good time spent, cleared many doubts.

Went shopping afterwhich, with Elaine and Daphne. Bought a pair of Hush Puppies shoes @ $79. Went G2000, bought 2 shirts and a pair of trousers, cost me $120. Its considered cheap, cuz they are having sale. Bottoms at 30% off and Tops at 40% off. Only I bought stuff, the 2 ladies just see see look look. Spent 200bucks in an hour! I think I have many more things to buy but the money in the bank doesnt seem to increase. Lolx.

I realised yesterday that many of my causal/home wear start to tear. Beginning to find holes here and there. Pathetic. I need to replenish them soon! Lets see what I need,

1. Tonnes of Underwears!!! lolx
2. Tonnes of Shorts/Berms
3. Tonnes of T-shirts
4. Sweater
5. Quilt and covers
6. Laptop bag - Braun buffel's is so damn expensive but looks so cool!!

Hohoho! I will be damn broke after buying all of the above. And I will start next semester as a poor undergraduate again! lolx...

Chalet!

Just got back from the NUS-NTU NPCC Annual Retreat at Aloha Changi Chalet. It is located in a very ulu place, right beside Changi Village, with no facilities at all. Hahax..But when budget counts, we gotta make do. Stayed there for 3 days throughout, fed the mozzzies there nice and fat. Got to meet up with most the guys I have not seen in ages, have not been involved in any HQ/NUS NPCC activities throughout the holidays so no chance to meet up with them.

14th July is Weiling's 20th Birthday. Happy 20th Hatchday mei! Hope you had enjoyed your day! Called her that night, but talked halfway, battery flat. So sorry.

Shiyun made me a card. she quoted from the bible, 1 Corinthians 13:13,
"There are three things that remain, faith, hope and love, and the greatest of these is love".
Thank you for the card Shiyun, so touched! I will be back to my old self, perhaps a better one.

Was reading this article, National Service Vicious Cycle of Breakup, on Hooked, a NUSSU publication. Its a 3 paged article about how NS spoils relationship and how it became a vicious cycle. Irrelevant to me, just reading it for fun. Maybe Anqi would be more interested. lolx.

Thank you Auntie Lena for the pizza from Pastamania and the can of Kilkenny. Lolx. Free food and drink! And also Auntie Sabrina for her really amusing story that really amazed me, that which I will not post up here, for she will kill me if she sees the story up here. Lolx..Maybe when the time is ripe ya?! lolx...And remember the thing that I discover? lolx..Shall see if it is true soon!

Laterz...

Reflection

Was playing this game called Hexic on MSN with Sabrina. It reminds me of her. She introduced this game to me. She is an expert of this game, which I could never figure. She always play this game when she is alone at my place. Keyword is alone. This morning, when I was reading the papers before I went out, my dad said to me, next time when I have a girlfriend, never throw her alone at home while I go out. Last time, when my dad's elder brother was still alive, he had a girlfriend of 9years whom left him because he always left her at home alone. This is a lesson my dad wants me to learn from and yes, i learnt it the hard way. He should have told me this story earlier.

Well..No regrets..Just a reflection of the past...Maybe I was never that good a guy as I thought I would be.
Sabrina still beat me to the game. I guess I never could figure out this game.

GReat day!

Today is a great day! After a month of intensive training for IPPT and very strict diet control, today I went for a feast! Shiok!

Woke up in the morning, Mum cooked already, so ate at home then go out. Met Auntie Lena at Cityhall. Went Sakae Sushi for Buffet! Eat till wanna PUKE! lolx..Have not ate till so full for a long long time le. Then went to Coffee Pacific to chill till evening. Had a Ice Chocolate. Sinful! Auntie Lena supposed to give me a treat but don't know why end up I treated her to everything. lolx..

Went company for lesson at night, after that went Novena to have Chicken Rice with Wee, Fax and Daph! After that had Ice cream! So Full the entire day! Think I gain back all the weight I lost in a month within a day. lolx.

Tomorrow is NUS-NTU NPCC Annual Chalet. From thurs to sat. Jacky and me are coodinating this chalet, but like I never do much things in coodinating. Hmm..Shall see what I can do tmr. lolx.. Hope to have loads of fun there!

Thank you Auntie Lena for the company today. =)

IPPT Results

Phew~~Finally cleared my IPPT within my window period this year. This simply means no Remedial Training(RT), and an extra $200 into my bank account.

Results are as follows:

Sit Up - 40 - 5pts
SBJ - 234cm - 4pts
Chin Up - 8 - 3pts
Shuttle Run - 9.7s - 5pts
2.4km Run - 11:33min - 3pts

Total: 20
Result: Pass
Award: Silver

Moral of the story? An extra 200bucks to spend proudly sponsored by SAF.

My 2.4km damn heng. 1140 is the slowest timing for silver. Its my 1st time running the route. Not used to the pace at all. Slowed down by 45sec from my last run. The route is 3 rounds of 800m. Not the conventional running track. 1st 2 rounds I chiong all the way, last round punctured. lolx..My window closes and open again in Sep after my birthday, going for GOLD this time round.

Just another day...

Went to meet Karyn for lunch at JP in the afternoon. Sat at Coffee Bean the whole afternoon, talking about everything under the sun. Been a long time since I last met her, so catching with our lives. Its really stressful to go out with pretty girls these days. I left the table to go buy food and some old man tried to pick up on her and wanted to be friends. lolx..So fast!!

Saw Zihui at Coffee Bean too. Have not seen her ever since we graduate after Olevels. She is now a SIA cabin crew. Become alot prettier than before. Had a good chat with her too. She told me, "if your girlfriend cannot follow you through hardships, then the girlfriend is not worth keeping". Totally agree. She drives a lancer. Cool.

Well, many friends my age around me have started driving already, not because their parents are rich, but they earned it. I wonder what the heck am I waiting for? I wonder what the heck have I been doing for the past 23yrs. I wonder why the heck am I studying so much and so hard.

Auntie Keng Hui is dating me out on Wed!! Wonder where will she bring me to. lolx..If I remember correctly she still owes me a treat. Hmm..I think she is forever oweing me treats. lolx...

Went to Braun Buffel Suntec Boutique just now. Bought a belt. Cost $84. I still need shoes and clothes. Braun Buffel's shoes are damn ugly. I think I will go to Hush Puppies to take a look. I need tonnes of new clothes. T-shirts and formal wear too!

I think I need to get a Quilt soon. My sleep has been quite disturbed recently with the lousy comforter of mine.

Well, Sabrina mentioned that I should talk more about her on my blog. Yes. How could I only put a one-liner about her in my previous post. Well this very nice girl sent me Smses to cheer me up when I was sad, she offered to be my part time girlfriend too and goes shopping with me! And wants to treat me to lunch tommorow! Just that I got IPPT, so we shall meet some other day k! Thanks alot ger!! I treat you next time k! lolx..

Work no more

Today is my last day of work. Finally time to take a break after 2 months of working. And it is probably this 2 months that caused me to lose a girlfriend. Not worth the money. Went to Kster on friday with Carrefour peeps. Supposed to be a happy occasion, I ended up being sad and drunk. Shitty. Been a long time since I got drunk. 2 bottles of Chivals did just the job.

Cut my finger today at work. A dumb act. Blood was dripping like nobody's business. Went to the toliet to wash the wound, blood was dripping all over the floor and toliet bowl. Lolx..Some guys menstrated?

Meeting up Karin at Jurong Point for lunch tommorow afternoon. Been quite sometime since we met. Looking forward to it.

Hmm..Sabrina wanted to treat me to lunch on tues but I don't have such good fortune. My ippt is on tuesday evening. Gotta rest the whole day. $200 is mine!!!!! Treat me again on some other day okay..lolx..

Gotta meet up with Angeline soon. I miss her! And Huiyin also, before she flies off to China for exchange. And also my mei, Weiling, before she flies to the states for exchange also. So many people to meet!

Next week there is a Chalet coming up. NUS/NTU NPCC Annual Chalet. 13th-15th July. It will be fun!! I think I lost touch with NPCC ever since I started working.

Christobel gave me a photo of Steve, her and me taken together as my farewell gift toaday. Thanks alot! She written some stuff behind too! Don't worry, I wont forget you and I will miss you..All the best to you and Kelvin!

Hohoho! Italy won the World Cup 2006. France played horribly, they deserved to lose. Zidane was stupid to tarnish his own reputation in his last international game. Italy's defence is outstanding. Buffoon is really the best keeper in the world. Look at the number of saves he made. Barthez is no where near man. The Frenchmen probably got stressed out in face of the world's best keeper during the shootout. Well..I owe Suzanna a tub of Ben and Jerry's Icecream because Italy got into the finals. Thats the only bet I made this World Cup. Lolx.

痛定思痛

痛定思痛，发奋图强。。。

Artist: Westlife
Song: Fool Again

Baby, I know the story
I've seen the picture
It's written all over your face
Tell me, what's the secret That you've been hiding
Who's gonna take my place

I should've seen it coming
I should have read the signs
Anyway...I guess it's over

Can't believe that I'm the fool again
I thought this love would never end
How was I to know You never told me
Can't believe that I'm the fool again
And I who thought you were my friend
How was I to know You never told me

Baby, you should've called me
When you were lonely
When you needed me to be there

Sadly, you never gave me two many chances
To show how much I care
I should've seen it coming
I should have read the signs
Anyway...I guess it's over

Turning point

Have been keeping myself occupied these 2 days....Attended lessons conducted by Yanni Jie after work. Learnt a multitude of stuff from her in 2 days alone. I'm transforming all my negativities into doing useful and effective things. Maybe this is the turning point in my life. Being in prolonged depression will not bring me any good. I will get over it very soon.

Like what KJ said, excerpted from her blog,
"I realise... ... that the world doesn't stop for anyone. Perhaps I have always known, yet when this fact is slapped right in the face, it hurts.
I realise... ... that even if I cannot move forward, others can, and others have. Nobody will stop for anyone right? Yet it still hurts."

While you are tearing away in this little universe of your own, others have already gotten on with their life, they will not give a damn of whether your are happy or not, because of the very fact that they have already found their own happiness. Having planted all these logical reasoning into the conscious mind, the subconscious mind just refuse to accept it, time is crucial in strengthening this believe in the subconsicous mind. As for now, yes, it still hurts.

Anqi said she saw more hurt than hatred in my eyes. Well, I guess its true. I guess no matter how much the other party had hurt you, but for as long as you loved the person, you cannot bring yourself to hate her. You magnify this hate through the transformation of love to avoidance, the more you avoid, the more hurt than hate you are. All you can do is to wait for the love to fade and disappear, thats when you do not hate and do not avoid anymore. Thats when you have moved on. When will that be?

I was really surprised to see so many tags for me. I did not know my blog has such high viewership. I know I've said this many times but still, I want to thank everyone who had helped me through this period of time, right down to just leaving a tag, its good enough for me. Thank you all. I will be fine.

Friends.

Was feeling terrible the entire day. When there is nothing to do, the mind will start to wander.

Met up with Shawn and fax for a few drinks in the evening. Accompanied me till late in the night. Such good friends they are.

Was very touched when Kailin and Kaijun drove all the way down to my place at 3 in the morning to talk to me. They just touch down in the evening after a long flight, and all that they need is rest but they still made their way down. Talked for more than 2hrs, just got back home. Definitely feeling better after the talk. Thanks a lot man. Appreciate it. Hugz.. They invited me to join them in their trip to Hongkong. Previously, Chris asked me to join her in her Bangkok trip. To all these really good friends I've, really thank you all. Without all of you, there will be no me.

Bored

Spent my entire off day at home. Watching TV, surfing net, nothing better to do.

Woke up this morning, my mum asked me wanna shift everything over to the adjacent room and sleep there. I asked her why and she said the sun will shine into the room in the morning, then it will be very warm to sleep in. Strange, I've been sleeping in this room since we moved here and I never complain about the sun before. I think she just want me to have a change of environment thats all. I declined the offer and told her I will be fine in my current room.

I'm going out for a walk. Life sucks. I'm no longer the best.

手放开

我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌写着等待

Retail therapy

After 7 long days of roadshow at Suntec Carrefour, everyday working 10-10 without any day off, setting up which runs 4am into the morning and a midnight sales which I worked fr 10am to 1am at night. Finally its over. Took 2days off, mon and tues, its a long awaited break. With so many things happening this few days, sales is definitely affected. No mood to talk so much cock with customers, talks that lack convincing power and persuasion skill, closing deals are bad.

Have not been sleeping much since thursday. Slept at 6-7am every morning and wake up at 9 and off I go to work. Feeling the strain but i guess insomnia has caught up on me again. Have not been eating much also. 1 meal per day. Its hard not to lose weight. Can't even finish a packet of Chicken Rice, not very much like myself, and I feel satiated the whole day. My efforts for losing weight has paid off. I lost 6kg in 3weeks. Just got back from a run. 2.4km timing is 10.46. 3wks ago, my timing was close to 13min. I shall lose another 3kg and my weight will be just nice.

Went out with Anqi today. Woke up early in the morning too, couldnt sleep much. Supposed to go ECP to rollerblade but her legs injured. So end up in Orchard shopping. She said she will be my "part-time girlfriend" for the day. Lolx. Can't believe I spent 200+bucks in just 30mins. Bought a SWATCH watch which cost $129, the 1st watch that I ever bought for myself. All my other watches were given to me as gifts. Bought a Braun Buffel wallet at 84bucks. Went to watch Slient Hill at Cineleisure after shopping, did not play the game before, so couldnt understand the storyline, Anqi and me were so lost in the show. Ate quite abit of stuff today. I think i spent 250 over bucks today in all. So thats what they call retail therapy. Thank you Anqi, for accompanying me today, if not I would have cooped myself up at home.

Today I returned whatever that was given by her during the past 4yrs back to her. Realised that I had nothing left, thats why I bought wallet and watch. There are more things to buy. Half my wardrobe is gone, shoes, belt, quilt, sweater, even stationaries. All my favourite books are gone. Most of the stuff in my room are bought by her, I seldom buy anything seriously. I shall start shopping next week when I quit my job. This coming Sunday is my last day of work. There is still a month to school reopening, wonder how I should spend my time. Actually intended to quit earlier so that I can spend more time with her, cuz this job might provide a lucrative income but there is really no time for anything else. But now there is no more need for that already. I will still quit nevertheless, I'm tired. Its time to slow down the pace of life and ponder about what had happened and what next.

Some said that what I did was correct, some said that I should be more gentlemanly. I wanted to end it in a gentlemanly fashion but I couldnt come to terms with it. Cognitive Dissonance. The eyes see not what the heart feels and the heart feels not what the eyes see. Even my parents said I was too impulsive, they said I should have listened to her side of explanation. Shawn said that too. Till now, I do not see the need to, so I will not.

I've decided to be a gentlemen, like what chris said, its a test of inner strength. I will remove my previous post titled "Hatred". I will apologise for any damage done thus far. I'm sorry. But I still insist that we will be friends no longer.

Songs

Some say I should sing this:

李圣杰&林隆璇 - 你那么爱他

直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个美好风景
只是他早已离去 直到你相逢
他早已经不在对你留恋
最后的你 开始了一段挣扎
哦～～～
你那么爱他 为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话 你深爱他
这是每个人都知道啊

Others say I should sing this:

梦飞船 - 不值得

除了想你除了爱你
hu ~我什么什么都愿意翻开日记整理心情
hu ~我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你

I chose the latter song. Period.